I accepted Jesus into my heart at a very young age. I knew I was precious to Him and always had a seat at His table as His beloved child and daughter. The unconditional love and forgiveness and grace of God was a gift I could easily accept.
What took much longer to accept, decades perhaps, was myself.
I couldn’t accept my fearfulness. My over-sensitivity. How easily I was embarrassed and cried.
I couldn’t accept my shyness, or my depression and anxiety, or my body.
I couldn’t accept my inability to put on weight, or my awkwardness around guys, or my terror of public speaking.
I couldn’t accept my indecision, my passivity, or my lack of boundaries.
I couldn’t accept that the traumas I had endured had permanently left scars and changed me.
Decades after accepting Jesus into my heart, I was still having a difficult time accepting myself and all my obvious (to me) flaws. I floundered and failed, doubted and rebeled until I reached the very end of myself.
That is when God took over.
He whispered into the recesses of my desensitized heart until I started to feel Him working again and transforming me into who He created me to be. He kept working, challenging my perceptions, and reminding me who HE said I was.
I started repeating His promises to myself all day long. That I am the daughter of the King. That I was loved into being. That Jesus left the 99 to chase down and bring me back into His strong arms. That I was created with a purpose, with a divine calling on my life.
I had to learn how to accept myself and let Him use my weakness to showcase His power.
Friend, if you are unable to accept yourself, please meditate on these affirmations. Say them out loud. Write them down. Put them on your mirror. Insert your name into these verses. Start believing it.
Let me remind you, precious one, of this truth. If you can accept Jesus into your heart, if you can accept Him as your Savior and Protector and Healer and Friend, if you can accept His boundless grace and mercy, then surely you can accept the being that was created in the image of God, whose body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is beloved beyond measure.